riverside, ca

so we have OFFICIALLY began moving to Riverside, CA...
it was really weird because when i was helping my dad i kept referring to the house as THEIR house, because it's not ours...
i wont be living there..
i would be lying to you if i told u i wasnt tempted to just cancel all plans of moving out and just live with them in that 1 acre lot...
but i'm not going to..

there's a lot of inconveniences to living there, number one being it's not rancho cucamonga...
as much as i've hated on this place, i love it too much too leave...

i'm embarking on this new journey and i know that i always say it but i'm seriously scared..
a million things could go wrong, and right now my future roommate is in the Philippines so she's not here for me to yell at, because she seriously needs to get her shit together at work....

how do these feelings of nervousness subside?
i'm reaching out to all ya'll...
i'm so seriously scared, my nerves are shot, but in the back of my head I KNOW i can do it...

so seriously hook me up with some tips, i know that i've nationally promised to do better with eating out and stuff, and seriously i'm doing it, but that doesnt mean shit..

my job paycheck varies, thank god i've decided to take on babysitting and being a nanny again...

i hope that my hard work pays off...there's no more room for me to promote at my job, im really nervous about that..

i need to make more money and it sounds greedy but it's the truth, by the time i'm 25 i better own a house or else i'd seriously feel like i've failed...

hopefully the market stays sucky by the time i get my first teaching job because then brian and me can live in a house by the time we get married...
my timeline is seriously going according to plan...
and i dont want it to stop now...'
ive had so much support and motivation..
and as much as i scourn my parents..
i'm forever thankful that they've instilled the value of hard work in me....
either way,
things for the most part are stressful,
with school and this move (i'm gonna have to move 2 times i might add) i'm kinda overwhelmed...

hopefully,
life will start to level out...

goodnight all, and dont be too afraid to holla at me i miss all of u guys!