I can't believe it's been this long, reading back on my previous entries I feel like SO much has happened.
This is literally my first entry of the year and there is soo much contemplation and crazy events that have happened.
To most of my friends, it's pretty apparent that my introversion as at an all time high, and every time i make an attempt at social interaction, i back out.
I love all my friends and my family, but I think there's a lot inside myself that I've really been trying to work on.
Officially, I'm back in school....something that I should have done ages ago....but I am happy to state that I am back in school...
I am happy to state one other thing....but not without a bit of background to it.
This same time last year, I'm pretty sure you could talk to my sister, Brian, Kuya Sean or my Kuya Pogs (who received the brunt of my complaints)and find out that I was doing some serious soul searching in regards to my life choices.
I thought I wasn't happy where I was, I thought, I was better off somewhere else, but I went somewhere else....and somewhere else led me right back here...
Autism Behavior Consultants, it's been less than a year, and I officially realize what I want. I'm not going to be rich working there, but I'm going to be happy. I realized somewhere along the way, how much I loved working with these kids..How much i looked forward to making a difference in their lives, how much they've impacted my lives, and how much I want to give that back.
Apparently this was a lesson learned for me...
I look forward to what my future holds....I look forward to graduating in just a year and three months with my credential in Special Education...
I look forward....
6.09.2010
7.19.2009
it's been a while
i go through these spurts of posting random, and useless facts about myself and my life as its been for the period of time that i haven't posted last.
anyhow, post 24th birthday, i've hit a big self improvement kick. it hasn't occurred to me how much time has passed and how many things i've let go of that really, i shouldn't have...
i've been on a weightloss kick for a few months now, and though it may not be noticeable to everyone, a whopping 23 pound weight loss has done wonders to my self esteem, and i can't wait to continue this journey of self betterment...
i've been slacking off at work, i'm not even gonna lie, i wish i had motivation to work hard, to make all sorts of lots of money, because hell, i would be a lot better off financially if i worked just 10 to 15 hours more a week...if i could bring myself to wake up earlier that 9am every morning and start work at earlier than 10 o clock most days, and work a full 8 hour day (without drive time)...bottom line is i'm burning out and i'm burning out fast...
i have loved and will always love working with children effected by Autism, however, is ABA for me? which brings me to...going back to school...how in the world did i get so stuck in a rut and never went back to school...how annoying is it hearing "when are you going back to grad school?" when really it's because i'm annoyed with myself for not going back...
life otherwise has been super awesome. way back to when kuya jus graduated college, and we partied up way hard both weekends...the smell of alcohol still gives me knots in my stomach and increases the sensitivity of my gag reflux....i didn't even drink for my birthday!
anyhow, my past two weekends have been relatively tame, and i have to say, it's much appreciated.
last weekend being my birthday, brian bought us a beautiful dog from the pound...who is way super special...we've affectionately named him sushi...it's a long story why we named him that...so ask me personally :)
i've been on a twitter kick as well, so add me betches! twitter username: misskrisnicole
either way i'm outro...see everyone on the flipside :)
anyhow, post 24th birthday, i've hit a big self improvement kick. it hasn't occurred to me how much time has passed and how many things i've let go of that really, i shouldn't have...
i've been on a weightloss kick for a few months now, and though it may not be noticeable to everyone, a whopping 23 pound weight loss has done wonders to my self esteem, and i can't wait to continue this journey of self betterment...
i've been slacking off at work, i'm not even gonna lie, i wish i had motivation to work hard, to make all sorts of lots of money, because hell, i would be a lot better off financially if i worked just 10 to 15 hours more a week...if i could bring myself to wake up earlier that 9am every morning and start work at earlier than 10 o clock most days, and work a full 8 hour day (without drive time)...bottom line is i'm burning out and i'm burning out fast...
i have loved and will always love working with children effected by Autism, however, is ABA for me? which brings me to...going back to school...how in the world did i get so stuck in a rut and never went back to school...how annoying is it hearing "when are you going back to grad school?" when really it's because i'm annoyed with myself for not going back...
life otherwise has been super awesome. way back to when kuya jus graduated college, and we partied up way hard both weekends...the smell of alcohol still gives me knots in my stomach and increases the sensitivity of my gag reflux....i didn't even drink for my birthday!
anyhow, my past two weekends have been relatively tame, and i have to say, it's much appreciated.
last weekend being my birthday, brian bought us a beautiful dog from the pound...who is way super special...we've affectionately named him sushi...it's a long story why we named him that...so ask me personally :)
i've been on a twitter kick as well, so add me betches! twitter username: misskrisnicole
either way i'm outro...see everyone on the flipside :)
4.16.2009
3.17.2009
as of my last post great things have arisen...and I'm trying my very best to capitalize off moments like these :)
I'm updating via sidekick, so if this post is visually displeasing I apologize, but thank you in advance for reading...
there's been a lot of things on my mind; kids, money, my health, my family, my relationships.....
ever since I started working with kids, there's been a lot of things that I have come to a realization with....its that I want kids so very much...Michael and Nicholas, the 2 Korean boys that I nannied for 2 years plus mean the world to me...I mothered them I fed them, did homework with them, read books with them, bathed them, and was their 2nd mother when their mom had things to do....I would not trade that experience for the world...they're still a greater part of my life and I plan to have them in that part for the rest of my life...
kuya pogs and ateh jas have been there for me especially in the tougher times last year....I couldn't ask for a better big bro and sister in law...and even more...they've been truly blessed with twins whom we're all anxiously awaiting the arrival of...they, like the Lee Family, have become a great part in my life...kuya pogz and ateh jas took me in and even welcomed brian with open arms (and for my family that's a reaally big deal)...they've done a lot of emotional coaching and supporting...I can't help but want to just be able to give back to them as much as I can, and with the twins coming, I can't think of a better way, than to love those kids to no end...
but with all these things comes money, the biggest deal ever these days, our economy is hurting and people are suffering...2 weeks ago brian and I ran into a man who asked us for money, food, or anything we had to offer..he told us that him and his family were living at a motel down the street and that he can't find a job...my heart melted...I'm usually so skeptical, but there was something so humble about that man...I wanted to tell him to come stay with us and save their money from a shitty motel...but who am I? we bought them chips and gave them 5 dollars...it was probably nothing...but we tried...on the way home I was reduced to tears...very intense, sad, scared tears...
will that ever be me? will I ever have to ask for anything from strangers in the parking lot of Target? Please God I hope not...
wow quite the entry I've got going here...I think I'll stop here..I'm actually getting tired, and I think Brians getting tired of hearing me type on my sidekick...night world...here's to another day...
President elect, make this country one that my niece and nephew will have a brighter future in....
I'm updating via sidekick, so if this post is visually displeasing I apologize, but thank you in advance for reading...
there's been a lot of things on my mind; kids, money, my health, my family, my relationships.....
ever since I started working with kids, there's been a lot of things that I have come to a realization with....its that I want kids so very much...Michael and Nicholas, the 2 Korean boys that I nannied for 2 years plus mean the world to me...I mothered them I fed them, did homework with them, read books with them, bathed them, and was their 2nd mother when their mom had things to do....I would not trade that experience for the world...they're still a greater part of my life and I plan to have them in that part for the rest of my life...
kuya pogs and ateh jas have been there for me especially in the tougher times last year....I couldn't ask for a better big bro and sister in law...and even more...they've been truly blessed with twins whom we're all anxiously awaiting the arrival of...they, like the Lee Family, have become a great part in my life...kuya pogz and ateh jas took me in and even welcomed brian with open arms (and for my family that's a reaally big deal)...they've done a lot of emotional coaching and supporting...I can't help but want to just be able to give back to them as much as I can, and with the twins coming, I can't think of a better way, than to love those kids to no end...
but with all these things comes money, the biggest deal ever these days, our economy is hurting and people are suffering...2 weeks ago brian and I ran into a man who asked us for money, food, or anything we had to offer..he told us that him and his family were living at a motel down the street and that he can't find a job...my heart melted...I'm usually so skeptical, but there was something so humble about that man...I wanted to tell him to come stay with us and save their money from a shitty motel...but who am I? we bought them chips and gave them 5 dollars...it was probably nothing...but we tried...on the way home I was reduced to tears...very intense, sad, scared tears...
will that ever be me? will I ever have to ask for anything from strangers in the parking lot of Target? Please God I hope not...
wow quite the entry I've got going here...I think I'll stop here..I'm actually getting tired, and I think Brians getting tired of hearing me type on my sidekick...night world...here's to another day...
President elect, make this country one that my niece and nephew will have a brighter future in....
3.09.2009
the week ahead
What a way to start the week!!!
Here I am, 10am and sipping on my cup of Joe, blogging and just thinking about things...
I'm 23 years old and I still blog hahah GO FIGURE..
I've been thinking about a lot of things lately, and just wanting to put things into action.
The life keeps moving around me and I sometimes feel like I'd much rather let it pass me by, then join the daily "grind"...
Work's been great, I got the raise I asked for and hope I deserve!!
My morning appointment got canceled, so that's the main reason I'm here and not doing something like working haha...
This past weekend was quite relaxing but a great feeling :)
Brian and I were finally NOT sick, so that I think was about the greatest highlight of our weekend lol.
On Friday, I spent a lovely girls day in with my BFF Beav, Tammy, and new found friend Janet...
Stella Rosa my newest wine preference!!!
Absolutely DEELISH and if I wasn't driving home that night I woulda polished off the entire bottle!!!
Tammy and Janet are 2 strong willed, successful women with awesome lives that make me just want the same!
How embarrassing if they read this, but when we were talking they were just a true inspiration to what I really want to be able to have.
They ignited a different kind of motivation in me to just really be successful and want big things in my life.
On Saturday, I went to the park with my sister to spend time with my most favorite kids in the world.
For those of you that don't know I used to be a nanny for 2 little Korean boys, named Michael and Nicholas, for 2 extremely important years in my life, these 2 boys were the center of my universe...
I think the greatest thing about having these two in my life was all that I learned from them,
aside from Pokemon and YuGiOh, I think the greatest lesson they taught me was that there was no greater feeling than making a difference in someone's life...
These two little boys have probably taught me the most out of anyone I have ever encountered, they make me smile a genuine smile when I spend time with them...
Their mother, Gina, is also another strong willed woman that I have been heavily influenced by, and if it wasn't for her, I don't think I would have ever set out to be on my own..
nicho picho loves him some food, he has grown up SOOO much!
Michael doesn't need me to get milk for him anymore, because he can do it on his own now!
...sigh...
Sunday, I spent the entire day with my mom, we went to lunch and just hung out being girls together..
I used to hate going to my parents' house and visiting them, I was always afraid of the lectures about money, being responsible, and my awful credit score...but I realized that maybe they're just trying to get me to get my shit together...
I let it go, and take the pain because it passes when they get bored of talking about it...
I really do love my parents and my heart aches seeing my mom as lonely as she is while my dad's gone...
I never understood the way their relationship worked, but seeing my mom so sad that my dad is gone, I understood that the most important thing exists in their relationship and that's love..
It's corny and cheesy, but as many times as I've wanted my mom to get a divorce from my dad, I think I understand now that she hasn't left him because she loves him...
I will never ever understand the fucked up ways that they do things, but I will understand that my mom and dad make each other happy.
I can't believe I've sat here for this long...
Hope you enjoy my ever so long ramblings :)
Here I am, 10am and sipping on my cup of Joe, blogging and just thinking about things...
I'm 23 years old and I still blog hahah GO FIGURE..
I've been thinking about a lot of things lately, and just wanting to put things into action.
The life keeps moving around me and I sometimes feel like I'd much rather let it pass me by, then join the daily "grind"...
Work's been great, I got the raise I asked for and hope I deserve!!
My morning appointment got canceled, so that's the main reason I'm here and not doing something like working haha...
This past weekend was quite relaxing but a great feeling :)
Brian and I were finally NOT sick, so that I think was about the greatest highlight of our weekend lol.
On Friday, I spent a lovely girls day in with my BFF Beav, Tammy, and new found friend Janet...
Stella Rosa my newest wine preference!!!
Absolutely DEELISH and if I wasn't driving home that night I woulda polished off the entire bottle!!!
Tammy and Janet are 2 strong willed, successful women with awesome lives that make me just want the same!
How embarrassing if they read this, but when we were talking they were just a true inspiration to what I really want to be able to have.
They ignited a different kind of motivation in me to just really be successful and want big things in my life.
On Saturday, I went to the park with my sister to spend time with my most favorite kids in the world.
For those of you that don't know I used to be a nanny for 2 little Korean boys, named Michael and Nicholas, for 2 extremely important years in my life, these 2 boys were the center of my universe...
I think the greatest thing about having these two in my life was all that I learned from them,
aside from Pokemon and YuGiOh, I think the greatest lesson they taught me was that there was no greater feeling than making a difference in someone's life...
These two little boys have probably taught me the most out of anyone I have ever encountered, they make me smile a genuine smile when I spend time with them...
Their mother, Gina, is also another strong willed woman that I have been heavily influenced by, and if it wasn't for her, I don't think I would have ever set out to be on my own..
...sigh...
Sunday, I spent the entire day with my mom, we went to lunch and just hung out being girls together..
I used to hate going to my parents' house and visiting them, I was always afraid of the lectures about money, being responsible, and my awful credit score...but I realized that maybe they're just trying to get me to get my shit together...
I let it go, and take the pain because it passes when they get bored of talking about it...
I really do love my parents and my heart aches seeing my mom as lonely as she is while my dad's gone...
I never understood the way their relationship worked, but seeing my mom so sad that my dad is gone, I understood that the most important thing exists in their relationship and that's love..
It's corny and cheesy, but as many times as I've wanted my mom to get a divorce from my dad, I think I understand now that she hasn't left him because she loves him...
I will never ever understand the fucked up ways that they do things, but I will understand that my mom and dad make each other happy.
I can't believe I've sat here for this long...
Hope you enjoy my ever so long ramblings :)
2.27.2009
well...
it freaking bites that I could swear that no one around me loves lily allen like i do, let alone knows her, and her freaking show is sold out in san diego....
"it's not you it's me" is probably the best mix of I'm fighting with my boyfriend, I love my boyfriend, I want to get rid of my boyfriend, and I hate society's view on what's cute, ugly and beautiful....
in other news things have been kind of back and forth, i'm really getting fed up with my job, and with the underpaidness of it all, but seeiing as there's a raise freeze, and our economy is shit, i shouldn't be complaining.
as of lately my social life has been on the backburner, and i've been staying in, writing reports, watching good movies, and spending time with brian.
i've also been baking my life away :)
I love the way it makes people happy, and it also makes me proud to say it's always from scratch...
tonight, I made dinner salmon and fettuccine alfredo
DEEELISH
I also made snickerdoodle cookies :)
either way...that's enough of me...pictures and such to come
peace and love life
"it's not you it's me" is probably the best mix of I'm fighting with my boyfriend, I love my boyfriend, I want to get rid of my boyfriend, and I hate society's view on what's cute, ugly and beautiful....
in other news things have been kind of back and forth, i'm really getting fed up with my job, and with the underpaidness of it all, but seeiing as there's a raise freeze, and our economy is shit, i shouldn't be complaining.
as of lately my social life has been on the backburner, and i've been staying in, writing reports, watching good movies, and spending time with brian.
i've also been baking my life away :)
I love the way it makes people happy, and it also makes me proud to say it's always from scratch...
tonight, I made dinner salmon and fettuccine alfredo
DEEELISH
I also made snickerdoodle cookies :)
either way...that's enough of me...pictures and such to come
peace and love life
1.06.2009
the new year
2009 rang in the best ever, and I just KNOW that this year is gonna be a GREAT year...((i hope i'm not jinxing it))
I started the New Year with the greatest family a girl can ask for...
Screaming the rap lyrics to WuTang and Tribe Called....
Jumping in pools, cleaning up vomit...:)
Spend New Year's day with my seestar and her boo, and my baby..
Enjoyed life, and prepared for Tiffany's birthday
Threw an awesome extremely successful birthday party for my seestar,
Went to the first More Fire of 2009 and that was the best ever...
I'm just so optimistic...I even had a bit of a freak out about work for it to end up working out...
Ijust feel so optimistic...and feel so good
2009 here i come!!!
I started the New Year with the greatest family a girl can ask for...
Screaming the rap lyrics to WuTang and Tribe Called....
Jumping in pools, cleaning up vomit...:)
Spend New Year's day with my seestar and her boo, and my baby..
Enjoyed life, and prepared for Tiffany's birthday
Threw an awesome extremely successful birthday party for my seestar,
Went to the first More Fire of 2009 and that was the best ever...
I'm just so optimistic...I even had a bit of a freak out about work for it to end up working out...
Ijust feel so optimistic...and feel so good
2009 here i come!!!
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