birth

on this day today, my father was born...

well on this day today, my father was one day old :)...
we celebrated my fathers birthday and i am so happy for him..
there have been a lot of trials and tribulations for him in the past few months, but i am still oh so very proud to call him my father.
this family has fallen victim to the government's corrupt politics,
i wish to not go further with this, for i risk a great deal in divulging such information,
however, knowing this, i think that you understand just a little bit more why i think this government is a bunch of bull sh.....
i digress.

tomorrow/today my baby Michael Lee is gradumating kindergarten from Caryn Elementary!
i'm so proud of him,
when i first had him, he was so socially inept, and had a brain that produced so much that his ideas came faster than his ability to express them...

children, especially all of mine (Korean and Autistic) have honestly made me soo proud, so privileged and SO happy to be a part of it all....
Michael and Nicholas, before my sister and i were children with such an urge to express themselves in any way shape or form...
and we gave it to them, we gave them....the words and tools to use to make themselves who they are and will be....

all my children at the clinic mean the world to me...
i cannot imagine myself anywhere else...
and although monetarily i'm sure i am not being compensated adequately...
i know that emotionally, i have filled a void that has existed for so long..

no longer do i have a job with no meaning to me or to society,
yes every occupation has a purpose, and is chosen by each their own to ensure that they are fulfilling not only the physical needs, but emotional and mental as well...
my occupation is mentally stimulating, and each and every one of my colleagues and i, spend everyday, ensuring that our every move, behavior, saying, is one that will positively influence the children we work with....

and excuse me for maybe sounding a bit righteous,
but i am tired of answering ignorant questions of the children i work with....

"so what's their thing?"
"are they basically retarded?"
"why dont you just tell them to stop?"
"isnt Autism like, when you dont know how to act right?"

people have come to these insanely inaccurate conclusions...
why in the WORLD would anyone in their right minds state these ignorant things as if they were fact?

please, when you ask about something unknown to you, ask in a manner that would not offend or give the person you are asking the impression that you are extremely ignorant and GAH!

.......

so...
yeah...
i'm off tomorrow YAY!